It seems like many other blogs, this one too entered a hibernating phase..
My intention is not to keep your minds boggling, so without provoking you to guess, I clearly state that I was going through something I never faced before..and no matter how important, exciting, fulfilling it was, nevertheless being away from your dear ones is traumatic too..
It's not that for the first time in my life I was away from my family. Two decades ago I had to leave for hostel of medical school leaving parents and siblings at home. This time, not only the comfort of home I had to leave as earlier, that too not as a child rather as a parent. I had to be away from my kids and their father. An unexpected job opportunity at a farther place made me do so.
Facing a roller coaster of emotions followed by many drastic events in the daily routine, coping up with separation and anxiety has taken its toll, making me wish a number of times that I should have been stronger, or better, not taken such a decision at the first place.
Still in doldrums passing each day with mind playing between highs and lows, normalcy still awaits.. Days pass with expectations of short duration meetings after lengthy time intervals..
Life's more than the time between waking up each morning and going to bed each night.. Many unexpressed longings wait their turn through out life never to be heard in the highest heavenly courts.. What you get is different from what you expect, still expectations never leave, making you move work more if not harder till you wonder where's the end?
What am I gaining? Is it the worth? Should I stop? No, one cannot stop..Some other thing will make me move in some other direction.. Moving is life..gathering courage is life..keeping your spirits intact is life..otherwise life has no meaning..stagnancy cannot be tolerated, it suffocates, is suicidal.
Bye for now..
